maoam

So, I started counselling placement yesterday
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.....I was nervous and felt a bit like what do I say, at times! However, the more I reflect back on it, I think it's about how I am in myself and that when I am content to be me and relax, that maybe the rest follows...and a lot of prayer of course!

I'm applying for a job up in Belfast at the Chinese welfare association, working with kids after school. It seems really good and I would like to do something like that...it's been such a rollercoaster ride lately with work and a difficult year. I would love to get it! I guess I will be praying about it and lay it all down and see what happens.

I have counselling class tomorrow, Queens is so different to art college and it wll take me a while to get into the swing of things. I have a reflective journal to write, and the guidelines say 12,000-14,000 words...i don't know how often that is though! I'll have to check it out...it seems like an awful lot!

Anyway, I have had a hope lately and doing a bit better. I have known God in this time, even though nothing has changed and know that He is in it and over it. I'm starting to read the Psalms now and find the honesty of David refreshing. I feel that there are some friends at the moment who are searching for more at this time too and who are very real....this is something I've needed andam thankful for, that I can share honestly and be accepted and pray, seek and ask...


Jesus is teaching me to be thankful and know Him with me...to pick the flowers from the desert. I've been doing some art again and writing some poetry which is good, I've missed my creative edge lately...I seem to easily get out of the way of being creative, I don't like it...my new self challenge is to carry a sketch book about with me and start scribbling!

I'm doing drama club today with work and am going to try to start this reflective journal....and do more job application forms...

...better get on it.